Tracey-anne's Blog: January 02, 2011

Post made in celebration

of a request made by a very special Lady

Happy birthday Caz

Have a beautiful day

oxo

Carolyn's 500th post on her blog too!

Request for blog par-ty:

Hmmmn what outfits would I wear on a dream date?

A dream date , OOOoo more thinking, more choices lol

What virtual gift for Caz on this special day ? *giggles*

Lets take a look shall we :0)

A baby is born with a need to be loved

- and never outgrows it.

Frank A. Clark

A loving heart is the beginning of all knowledge.
Thomas Carlyle

Diary:

6th Jan 2011

8.30 am

He is picking me up today,

I am so nervous.

Its been years since I last went on holiday with someone of the opposite sex

- ok I say the words...a man.

Breathe, keep calm when he arrives, this is going to be amazing I can feel it.

Yes ....good thoughts....good thoughts

My diary is coming with me...

when I get nervous I will write :0)

Well thats my plan...

Have I packed ok?

Its been so long...

Well I do like to carry protection -

He advised me to as well

...he is thoughtful

Just to make sure...

I packed vervain, ;0)

I could not resist packing my Steffie strappy top

hmmmm

Phew all checked, packed etc as

he will be here in a mo,

Ok ok .....calm...

breathe....

I can see him approaching..

Hi :0)

He kissed my cheek...

'Hop in' he said while opening my door...

His car was vintage, a beauty...she purred happily on our travel

Soon we were at the airport.

'Please 'I cried excited

'Just a tin-zie hint...'

Squinting my eyes and pretending to hold a slight gap

between my finger & thumb..

He smiled that infamous smile

.....I melted all to easily

returning the smile before

I had a chance to beg for information about our destination.

It was no good I really would have to try harder to get my own way :0)

My eyes were covered with a silk sash as we landed

& remained on until we reached a yacht...

It was incredible...

I think the feeling that warmed me more

& sent my heart racing

was the touch of his hand in mine...

Not the vintage car,

nor the first class seats on the plane,

or the yacht

but the warm feeling he created inside of me

- he wanted me

At the thought my heart raced even faster...

All, everything that I understand, I understand only because I love.
Leo Tolstoy

While on the yacht I had a chance to freshen up & change.

I needed my Linen clothing, the heat was nice here

but London was still in 50- 60 f

The smile I love reflected upon me once more

as he gave me a key

'Its a surprise' He spoke softly

then promptly hailed a taxi

We drove through quaint villages,

past bountiful woodlands

It was breathtaking...

We stopped at a beautiful villa...

'We are here'

His gaze set upon my face,

his eyes searching mine

then he gaze moved to my mouth...

I blushed & looked away

He then took my hand gently in his,

'Let me lead the way....come'

I laughed as I saw Ian..

He was here....does that mean..I turned

'Yes, Caz is here but its a secret that we are'

I smiled as our eyes met again,

'For her birthday...wow!'

Ian was jumping, dancing...he was excited that we could make it.

'Come on you two,

I will take you over to my friends villa.

They are away today and I thought it would be nice to have

quiet time to discuss everything ...well before you get too

erm, ...comfortable ...' Ian grinned & nudged G.

Though it was not I that blushed this time ...

The villa had its own pool, as did most ..

Gerard couldn't wait to jump in!

His eyes were calling me over

Ian shouted

'no time for that, drinks up,

he will just pull you in the pool.'

Gerard rolled his eyes & climbed out.

It was late afternoon.

Ian could see Caz down on the beach,

'Right remain hidden from this villa's beach ok,

catch up with you guys tomorrow

....thanks for coming, Caz is gonna luv it!'

Ian & Caz were in love..

This was their first holiday away together...

Ian was so excited to be able to get Caz away from it all -

he wanted to create a magical memory for her,

with the help of friends..

If you press me to say why I loved him,

I can say no more than because he was he, and I was I.
Michel de Montaigne

Back at the villa -

'Maybe we should go now,

take a walk to our villa....erm..the villa'

I laughed, 'I think that would be the best idea..too risky hiding here'

I don't know why I asked, ' Have you cooled down now?'

G smiled, his eyes squinted a little - teasing me,

'No .....I may require ...a tinz-ie bit of help'

I tried to contain my laugh but there he went again....

melting my defences....

We walked & talked,

sipped wine & played

- laughing while splashing the sea water at each other..

This was the first stage of love...

I could see it like a play unfolding before me

but unable, no unwilling to stop it...

I wanted, needed this ...

my heart was finally singing again...

We decided to head up to our....the villa,

It had been a long day but I felt more alive

than I had in years....

The sunset was stunning,

the colours healed everything it sat its gaze upon...

G joined me,

I could hear his breathing,

for a moment I thought it mine

His breath warm, humid against my neck..

I felt goosebumps & shivers..

Omg....omg ...he is going to kiss me...

I almost stopped breathing, in fact I may have

My head was suddenly spinning,

My neck felt a pleasing touch, warm, - his moist lips

I became aware of my breathing once more

as I gulped, as my mouth dry..

There he is, lips now upon my chin,

my own lips quivered in anticipation...

but he stopped,

It was like a bolt of lightening had hit me...

why had he stopped?

His hand reached to caress my face,

There I felt my swoon return...

'I'm falling in love with you'

Gerards eyes held my stare

as his lips approached mine..slowly

I couldn't hold my calm anymore

and took his face to meet mine faster..

Our lips embraced, fast, then slow...more intimate..

A tear escaped my eye,

too late he had felt it..

He searched my eyes without pulling his face from mine,

& gently, kissed it away.

My head was spinning,

my heart racing,

Am I ready ?

Can I love again?

It is difficult to know at what moment love begins;

it is less difficult to know it has begun.
Henry Wadsworth Longfellow

It was as if he heard me,

'Take a chance...please........I love you Tracey'

Life is a flower of which love is the honey.
Victor Hugo

I led Gerard into our villa,

poured some wine...

The night was just beginning...

Yes, I decided to take that chance..

Believe me if all those endearing young charms,
Which I gaze on so fondly today,
Were to change by tomorrow and fleet in my arms,
Like fairy gifts fading away!
Thou wouldst still be adored, as this moment thou art,
Let thy loveliness fade as it will
And around the dear ruin each wish of my heart
Would entwine itself verdantly still.
It is not while beauty and youth are thine own,
And thy cheeks unprofaned by a tear,
That the fervor and faith of a soul may be known,
To which time will but make thee more dear!
Oh the heart that has truly loved never forgets,
But as truly loves on to the close,
As the sunflower turns to her god when he sets
The same look which she turned when he rose!

Thomas Moore

By night on my bed I sought him whom my soul loveth.
Bible - Song of Solomon

Love has nothing to do with what you are expecting to get,

it's what you are expected to give — which is everything.
Author Unknown

Love in your heart wasn't put there to stay
Love isn't love until you give it away.
Oscar Hammerstein

Do you love me because I am beautiful, or am I beautiful because you love me?
Oscar Hammerstein II

Love is a portion of the soul itself,

and it is of the same nature as the celestial breathing of the atmosphere of paradise.
Victor Hugo

Love is composed of a single soul inhabiting two bodies.
Aristotle

Everytime you smile at someone, it is an action of love,

a gift to that person, a beautiful thing.
Mother Teresa

Diary:

7th Jan 2011

sometime in the afternoon...

My hand can barely steady itself to write the words

I wish to declare...

...I have fallen in love!

Its true...

His eyes reach in & touch my very soul...

I feel him there, he feels me....I know it...

His every touch speaks love...

When does this happen, love ?

It is magic in its true form...

a power beyond ones control...

I am happy I can not control it...

for to stumble upon it makes a most

enchanted connection...

We stayed in our villa during the day,

plenty to do there ;0)

I want him still...

Ok ok those deep breaths again,

his eyes ...

oh his eyes do speak

For it was not into my ear you whispered, but into my heart.

It was not my lips you kissed, but my soul.
Judy Garland

We got ready early eve,

Dinner was set

by the sea...

Ian was already there

G & I must have given the game away about us ..

The look on Ians face prior to bursting out laughing...

'Thats great guys,

Caz & I wondered if you were ever gonna get it together'

He patted G on the back, 'good man'

Ian left the table as Caz walked up from the beach to join us.

Oh I was so excited to finally get to see my friend!

Ian had done a terrific job - the table was amazing!

Yep - shoulda known...lol

Ian

started the birthday celebration

It`s Carolyns birthday !!

Happy birthday to you

Happy birthay to you

Happy birthday dear Cazzy

Happy birthday to you

hip hip hooray

(Caz blew the candles out in one swoop!)

Hip hip hooray

A toast was required

'To a most amazing lady,

how blessed we are to have you in our lives...

Thank you'

We all laughed & hugged

laughed again upon reading the bottle

typical Ian...Caz loved it!

We drunk wine, ate strawberries & cream

the candles aroma intoxicating.....

Ian then picked up his guitar

Ian sung his own lullaby to Caz

I had tears in my eyes

as I watched them both - moved by their love..

Had I the heavens' embroidered cloths,
Enwrought with golden and silver light,
The blue and the dim and the dark cloths
Of night and light and the half-light,
I would spread the cloths under your feet.
William Butler Yeats